October 24, 2014

motherhood:I'm still learning

One thing I've learned during this motherhood thing is that.. I'm still learning. And my teachers? They are hardcore. They like to throw pop quizzes at me, like Maddie taking off her diaper and pooping on the floor. Or when Em throws a "I hate you!" at me. The answers are sometimes obvious like, make sure Maddie doesn't have access to her diaper. But they are also sometimes hard, how can I talk to Em about getting her emotions out without saying hate? Or is hate an okay word to express how she feels? See? that little guy named second guessing likes to show up and confuse me.


Then there's the whole sleep situation. Yep. Still working on it, and by working on it I mean she still sleeps with us and we still nurse to sleep. Some days I'm just so exhausted from the crying and screaming that her sleeping in her own bed feels like it will never happen. Then I start googling, and reading, and find all these "How to get your baby to sleep for 10 hours!" and just feel like a failing failure. And then I start beating myself up for still nursing her. Because so-and-so weaned their baby at 12 months and it was soo easy. Not for us though. Weaning is still something I can't process happening. Maybe it's for me? Maybe because Mike has told me 2 trillion times how she's my last kid, I'm prolonging it. I don't know. What I do know is, it works for us. Right now, it works. And that's okay. But that's something I often forget. That it is okay.

Then there's Em. I feel like I'm constantly failing her. Somedays after Maddie's been crying a lot, I've had little sleep, and my to do list is so long I lose my cool with her. And I hate it. I don't want her to think I love Maddie more, because I don't. I love them both so much it's ridiculous. But I hate that she feels that way at times, because I've made her feel that way. How horrible is that? Pretty freakin horrible if you ask me. When she makes those statements though I always correct. I reassure her just how much she is loved, how smart she is, and how I couldn't imagine life without her. She really is such a special girl and I want her to always know that. And she does.

These little nuggets really are the greatest thing I've ever done. Of course, at times, they are hard and I wish I could call up my parents or In Laws and tell them to come get them for the night. But that's not my reality. It's just us and them, and no matter how tough it gets I really wouldn't change it, or change them.

So here's to the two crazy, silly, sometimes hard, very loud, little girls I call my daughters.


October 22, 2014

what happened to that spark?

The romance between me and this Blog is fading. Our spark is much more of a low flicker from time to time. But it's just a season and I know once I push through it, I'll be grateful I did.

This past weekend we celebrated Mike's birthday! He turned the big 2-7 and I like to call him old because I'm still only 25. Even though he's really not old at all. He hates it, I love it.

We went to a friends party for their daughter and Em lost at musical chairs, really she was actually kind of lost so we've gotta work on that. Maddie enjoyed moving the chairs all around the living room and getting attention from everyone. Such a ham.

Em's doing really great in school, she's in the most advanced group of her class and her teacher had zero complaints.

The girls costumes are ready for Halloween. Maddie's going to be a leopard and Em's Elsa, of course.
As much as I love candy I'm kind of ready for it to be November. Our friends are coming up for a weekend, Em turns 6, and my parents will be here for Thanksgiving. And of course, all the best shopping is in November.

The Christmas shopping list has begun! I'm going to stick to the "Something they want, something they need, and something to read" or at least I'm going to try.

Have you started Christmas shopping?

October 17, 2014

stripes and boots

For me Fall is the season of lightweight sweaters and really cute boots. And what is better than a super cute sweater!? A super cute AND custom fitted to your body sweater. Now let me introduce you to eShakti.
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It's so easy to put your measurements in too, the form even has help to tell you where specifically you should measure.

sweater c/o eShakti
So cute, right!?

The fit is perfect on me, and I loved that I had the option to make the sweater shorter or longer. I went for longer because I plan to wear it with leggings. A lot. It's so soft and the quality is great. Don't be surprised when you see me in this sweater a lot over the next few months.

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